It has been one of those days. I have been struggling trying to tame my heart and mind, but I’ve basically just ended up praying and asking God for forgiveness… a lot. I know I should be in awe of my God because He has granted that forgiveness, because He has shown me His love, yet mostly what I feel is shame at what I am. Maybe that is my problem (or at least one of them). I should focus less on me and more on Him. Duh. Any ways this has been a depressing paragraph. Onto the questions.
I guess my title is miss-leading. I think I actually only have one question. How are we as humans to consider/view ourselves? I recently heard the saying “God doesn’t make junk.” My first thought was “That’s a nice churchy way of trying to make people feel good about themselves.” As I’ve thought about it more I haven’t been so sure. On the one hand we all are junk, actually worse than junk seeing as how we (if we get our “rights”, what we deserve) should be in hell. On the other hand Christ died for all of us, that the world could be saved which makes us invaluable (though still going to hell unless we acknowledge Christ’s lordship). Both of these facts if taken by themselves lead to twisted views of God. How often I act as if this is an either or question and forget that both views are Biblical (I’m not taking the time to prove either statement, but don’t take my word for it I’m wrong more often than I’m right). I’m tired. It is time to go to bed.
Psalm 139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
Funny I should read this Psalm tonight.
Proverbs 11:12 He that is void of wisdom despiseth his neighbour: but a man of understanding holdeth his peace.
P.S. Reading over this again it looks kind of bleak. That is ok. I’m tired, and yes from time to time I have struggles and doubts. It amazes me what a good nights sleep will do for those struggles and doubts.