Month: April 2010

So I’ve got nothing to say.  We staff guys spent the day just hanging out together in Billings.  It was good, we need to do more stuff together (NOT work related).  We were going to go gopher hunting, but the weather was terrible.  It was good not to work, though I’m tired any ways.

Psalms 80:19 Turn us again, O LORD God of hosts, cause thy face to shine; and we shall be saved.

Proverbs 12:15-16 The way of a fool is right in his own eyes: but he that hearkeneth unto counsel is wise. A fool’s wrath is presently known: but a prudent man covereth shame.

12:28 In the way of righteousness is life; and in the pathway thereof there is no death.

This blog will be short.  I’m tired.  It was a full day.  We had our meeting this morning, the I helped set up the shooting range, shampooed carpets, did a trash run, and helped set up for our volunteer fire fighter appreciation supper.  So I’m ready for bed.

Psalm 79:8-9 O remember not against us former iniquities: let thy tender mercies speedily prevent us: for we are brought very low. Help us, O God of our salvation, for the glory of thy name: and deliver us, and purge away our sins, for thy name’s sake.

Proverbs 11:2 When pride cometh, then cometh shame: but with the lowly is wisdom.

11:12 He that is void of wisdom despiseth his neighbour: but a man of understanding holdeth his peace.

Arrowhead is officially done.  Graduation was on Friday.  I went up and gave my speech, and sat down.  Every one says it was good, so I’ll have to take their word for it.  I really hope I don’t have to do that again any time soon.  I moved from the dorm to the trailer this morning, and spent the rest of the day with Warren tearing the dorm apart.  This afternoon I got to start cleaning the carpets.  That is what I’ll be doing all day tomorrow as well.  Other than that I haven’t much to say.  I’m really tired.

Psalm 78:7-8 That they might set their hope in God, and not forget the works of God, but keep his commandments: And might not be as their fathers, a stubborn and rebellious generation: a generation that set not their heart aright, and whose spirit was not stedfast with God.

My prayer of all of us.

78:38-39 But he, being full of compassion, forgave their iniquity, and destroyed them not: yeah, many a time turned he his anger away, and did not stir up his wrath. For he remembered that they were but flesh; a wind that passeth away, and cometh not again.

I think this is both comforting and encouraging. God knows, He understands. He loves me, but His love is not content to leave me where I am.

78:72 So he fed them according to the integrity of his heart; and guided them by the skilfulness of his hands.

And He still does so today.

Proverbs 10:12 Hatred stirreth up strifes: but love covereth all sins.

Take note Eric.

Again, another good day (except for the first part which was spent in meetings).  This afternoon Tom and I started getting camps sporting clay course set up so I got to be outside.  After supper we had a game of Ultimate Frisbee with the students and that was an absolute blast.  Best of all I didn’t twist and ankle.  This evening I’ve been trying to get my speech written for the Arrowhead graduation and it isn’t going as quickly as I would have hoped.  I now have two days to get it done.  Bummer.

Psalm 77:2 In the day of my trouble I sought the Lord: my sore ran in the night, and ceased not: my soul refused to be comforted.

“In the day of my trouble.” I sometimes feel bad about always going to God when I feel my life is hard, yet David did it and God answered. I think that is encouraging.

I have to admit it was a long weekend.  Jacob and Jozie’s wedding is done, and it was really a lot of work.  I have to say I’m glad.  My brother and sister (Ben and Emily) were up here and it was so good to see them again.  I really enjoyed the time we got to spend together.  They’ll be back up again in September for another wedding.  Excellent.  I started writing my speech for graduation today.  I’ve got a good start, but I want to finish it up tomorrow so I can start editing it.

Today was a good day.  This morning God showed me very clearly an attitude of envy, and selfishness that I have.  So all during breakfast I was convicted.  After breakfast I was repenting, and then during our strategic planning we watched a movie that was both encouraging and confirming.  He really pointed out that I need to give Him control.  Praise and recognition are His, not mine.  When they’re not mine I don’t have to worry about them.  It’s irrelevant.  God can do whatever He wants with His praise and recognition.  I have this picture of the whole thing in my head, but I don’t know how to type it out.

Psalm 76:10 Surly the wrath of man shall praise thee: the remainder of wrath shalt thou restrain.

I’m not sure what this means, but I really like the wording and contrast.

Proverbs 8:35-36 For whoso findeth me findeth life, and shall obtain favor of the LORD. But he that sinneth against me wrongeth his own soul: all they that hate me love death.

Wisdom is speaking. It is important, vital to be seeking after, chasing, striving for wisdom.

Today was good. I updated the staff bio page. Took Alison off and got Johnson’s on. I’m still waiting on info from Tiffany and Mader’s. I also tried getting Jim and Andy’s computers going again. I still haven’t figured out the AutoCad install for Jim, and I cannot get Andy’s wireless to connect with our network. Very frustrating so I spent the end of the day helping Jeramy at the nature center. The weather was great, and I got to do some manual labor. That part was very much enjoyable.

Psalm 75:7 But God is the judge: he putteth down one, and setteth up another.

I Chronicles chapter 2 was also genealogies. I really struggle reading these. I know God has them in the Bible for a reason, but I don’t understand it.

This evening I’ve been reading the book The Hole in Our Gospel by Richard Stearns.  I’ve very much been convicted that I need to be doing more for the poor.  So I went to the World Vision website and I am now sponsoring a child.  Here is my question (which I will throw out into the great abyss of the Internet not really expecting a response): What are my motives?  Am I doing this out of my love for Christ or simply guilt?  God looks at my heart.  Christ says if I love Him I will obey his commands.  He commands me to take care of the poor.  Is it because of my love for Christ that I feel guilty?  How do I love this child (his name is Samuel and he lives in Kenya) who is so far away?

I almost didn’t do the sponsorship, but my only reason for not doing it was “I can’t afford it.”  Since this is obviously a lie I went ahead and did it any ways.  How do I know when to stop?  I’ve always been scared if I started doing things like this I would start caring, really caring, and would end up giving all my money away.  Why does that scare me?  How stupid is that?  Yet it is there, even now.   I have a really twisted heart.

Proverbs 6:20-22 My son, keep thy father’s commandment, and forsake not the law of thy mother: Bind them continually upon thine heart, and tie them about thy neck. When thou goest, it shall lead thee; when thou sleepest, it shall keep thee; and when thou awakest, it shall talk with thee.

6:32 But whoso committeth adultery with a woman lacketh understanding: he that doeth it destroyeth his own soul.

This is why porn is so bad. This is why it scares me so much. Christ said if you look at a women lustfully you have committed adultery with her in your heart. Adultery destroys souls.

The new week has begun.  I spent most of my day in the Trading Post again redoing our cash register system.  Donna and I managed to lock ourselves out of the software last week, so I had to reset all of it today.  I imagine most of the rest of this week will be spent getting ready for Jacob and Jozie’s wedding.  The ministry team was in Glendive this past weekend.  We stayed at the Stevenson’s house, it was good to see them.  Other than that nothing is really new.

Psalm 73:15 Whom have I in heaven but thee? And there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.

Can I honestly say that?

Proverbs 5:21 For the ways of man are before the eyes of the LORD, and he pondereth all his goings.

What a terrifying and beautiful thought. He sees all of me, without pretense. He loves me in-spite of it.

So not much happened today.  I discovered that script that I worked so hard at is not needed.  That was a bummer.  I did finally get the kbarcode program figured out.  That was good, but I wish I could have done it earlier.  Also there seems to be a problem with it.  Any who, I wont boar (sp or just the wrong word?)  you with the details.

Psalms 72:18-19 Blessed by the LORD God, the God of Israel, who only doeth wondrous things. And blessed be his glorious name for ever: and let the whole earth be filled with his glory; Amen, and Amen.

I think my title is self explanatory.  My car is fixed… finally.  I haven’t actually driven it since some time around July of last year.  It cost a lot, but it works now.  That is my exciting news for the day.  My bad news, is that though my script (which I spent like four days on) works, for some reason my barcode images don’t.  I’ve got to go back and redo that part.  I cooked lunch today, and that went well.  We had spaghetti.  It turned out fine, but I got the garlic bread a bit to brown.

Psalm 71:12 O God, be not far from me: O my God, make haste for my help.

71:17-18 O God, thou has taught me from my youth: and hitherto have I declared thy wondrous works. Now also when I am old and grayheaded, O God, forsake me not; until I have shewed thy strength unto this generation, and thy power to every one that is come.

This is how I want to live. I also want to do this (though I have not yet reached the gray headed part).

71:20 Thou, which hast shewed me great and sore troubles, shalt quicken me again, and shalt bring me up again from the depths of the earth.

Proverbs 3:3 Let not mercy and truth forsake thee: bind them about thy neck; write them upon the table of thine heart:

3:7 Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil.

II Kings 23:25 And like unto him was there no king before him, that turned to the LORD with all his heart, with all his soul, and with all his might, according to all the law of Moses; neither after him arose there any like him.

He turned to the Lord with all his heart, soul and might. Father please show me, teach me, work in me so that this can also be said of me.