Month: May 2010

I have to say I am an impatient person.  I want to be better and be better now.  And so I forget to thank God that I am getting better and that I’ve been able to keep up in my work.  I have been hit again, with a small glimps of what an awesome God I serve.  I’m pretty sure He keeps the glimpses small because I couldn’t handle a big one.  Any who I’m blathering.  It was a good day today.  The weather was really nice for a change.  I got to work outside this afternoon which was wonderful.

Psalm 98:8-9 Let the floods clap their hands: let the hills be joyful together before the LORD; for he cometh to judge the earth: with righteousness shall he judge the world, and the people with equity.

Proverbs 29:11 A fool uttereth all his mind: but a wise man keepth it in till afterwards.

Does this mean fools are transparent, and wise men opaque (or am I just taking that out of context)?

29:23 A man’s pride shall bring him low: but honour shall uphold the humble in spirit.

29:27 An unjust man is an abomination to the just: and he that is upright in the way is abomination to the wicked.

Two polar opposites. There is no compromise. You are in one camp or the other and the two camps do not get along.

Yesterday was miserable. I got some cold bug. I had a sore throat, fever, headache. The fever broke just after midnight this morning, and I’ve felt much better today (though I’ve been tiring easily) even though my nose is mostly stuffed and my head hurts from time to time. It rained all day today. I worked on the ABC website, and I cleaned the dining hall (though some nice summer staffers volunteered to help). Over all it was a good day.

Psalm 97:10-12 Ye that love the LORD, hate evil: he preserveth the souls of his saints; he delivereth them out of the hand of the wicked. Light is sown for the righteous, and gladness for the upright in heart. Rejoice in the LORD, ye righteous; and give thanks at the remembrance of his holiness.

Proverbs 28:13 He that covereth his sins shall not prosper;: but whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.

Confess and forsake. It is not enough to simply confess my sins. I have to stop doing them.

28:25-26 He that is of a proud heart stirreth up strife: but he that putteth his trust in the LORD shall be made fat. He that trusteth in his own heart is a fool: but whoso walketh wisely, he shall be delivered.

Ok, so I’m not sure what’s going on, but I rebooted the server today (Ubuntu 10.04 server edition 32 bit) and I couldn’t log in.  I had the correct user name and password, but I kept getting a timeout error.  It’s really frustrating, and then it just started working, for no reason that I could see.  I don’t understand, and for the first time both Google and the Ubuntu forums are failing me.  I can’t seem to find a solution to this problem, and I’ve only run into one other person who seems to have had it.  Ok, enough about my computer woes (after all that is part of my job).  I also worked in the Trading Post, and hosted the Absarokee 8th graders graduation bash.  It went well, but the camp fire could have been better.  That was mostly my fault, but it is done now.  This is getting long, and pointless so I’ll move on.

Proverbs 26:17 He that passeth by, and meddleth with strife belonging not to him, is like one that taketh a dog by the ears.

26:24-25 He that hateth dissembleth with his lips, and layeth up deceit within him; When he speaketh fair, believe him not: for there are seven abominations in his heart.

How many times have I disassembled people, both with my mouth and in my heart.

I Chronicles 21:1 And Satan stood up against Israel, and provoked David to number Israel.

Satan attacked Israel through David.

21:15 And God sent an angel unto Jerusalem to destroy it: and as he was destroying, the LORD beheld, and he repented him of the evil, and said to the angel that destroyed, It is enough, stay now thine hand.

It looks like God changed His mind. Huh.

So this weekend I re-installed our server from scratch.  Naturally I backed it up before hand, but apparently my backup did not copy hidden files.  So my journal (I’ve been keeping it since 2001) was not backed up when I blew the server away.  Ok, no problem, I’ve been using a different program to back up the server daily and it did copy hidden files.  I went to my back up and for some reason my folder was empty.  Every one else’s was fine, but mine had nothing in it.  Bummer.  What can I do?  Nothing.  So I started over tonight.

Enough about me.  About two thirds of our summer staff have arrived, for staff training (the other third will show up next week).  So far that has been going very well.  It looks to be a good crew this year.  The weather today was cold and rainy, but it is supposed to clear up by the end of this week, and should be pretty nice.

Psalm 94:11-12 The LORD knoweth the thoughts of man, that they are vanity. Blessed is the man whom thou chastenest, O LORD, and teachest him out of thy law;

Proverbs 25:20 As he that taketh away a garment in cold weather, and as vinegar upon nitre, so is he that singeth songs to an heavy heart.

25:27 It is not good to eat much honey: so for men to search their own glory is not glory.

I Chronicles 20:8 These were born unto the giant at Gath; and they fell by the hand of David, and by the had of his servants.

I wonder who that giant was. Apparently he was so well known they didn’t need to use his name. The giant had at least four sons (including Goliath).

I’m done with carpets till this weekend when I’ll do the office.  I’m also planning on redoing the server this Saturday.  I’m actually a little worried about it, as it will be a big job and it’s important that I do it right the first time.  I’m hoping to be able to leave it alone for a few years after that.  My back has been healing quickly, and I’m very thankful for that.  It’s still sore, but nothing like it was on Monday (at least I think that’s when I hurt it).

Proverbs 24:21 My son, fear thou the LORD and the king: and meddle not with them that are given to change.

24:29 Say not, I will do so to him as he hath done to me: I will render to the man according to his work.

I Chronicles 19:13 Be of good courage, and let us behave ourselves valiantly for our people, and for the cities of our God: and let the LORD do that which is good in his sight.

It seems to me this is how I ought to live. Courageously and valiantly for Christ, and God will do whatever is good in His sight. As long as I am faithful in my obedience everything else is God’s call.

I finished the carpet in Copper King today.  I’ll start on Mordor tomorrow.  It was an uneventful day.  My back is getting better quickly (which is a blessing).  Legacy camp started today.  I sat in for part of chapel and it is really neat to hear these older Christians testify to what God has done and is doing in their lives.  Oh yeah, we had our first thunderstorm of the year.  That was neat.  There was lightning strike very close to camp, and the thunder was awesome.

Psalm 92:1-2 It is a good thing to give thanks unto the LORD, and to sing praises unto thy name, O most High: To shew forth thy lovingkindness in the morning, and thy faithfulness every night,

Proverbs 23:17-18 Let not thine heart envy sinners: but be thou in the fear of the LORD all the day long. For surely there is an end; and thine expectation shall not be cut off.

That last part is so encouraging. There is an end. I will not have to fight this fight forever.

I Chronicles 18:14 So David reigned over all Israel, and executed judgment and justice among his people.

That is what a government is supposed to do. Execute judgment and justice. Anything past that really should be avoided.

So it finally happened.  I’ve been successfully avoiding counseling a camp since I got here in 2006, but last week I was volunteered, so I did it.  All the stuff that I had been dreading actually worked out very well.  My guys all got along, they all knew each other, none of them were particularly annoying (to me at least).  The week went well.  The weather was horrible (three days of snow and rain though we did get a day and a half at the end that was nice).  All that being said, I really don’t like counseling.  I found it boring.  Not that there wasn’t stuff to do I just don’t enjoy hanging out with campers that much.  I was really frustrated about it the first day and a half, but I think some one prayed for me, because after lunch on Tuesday I was ok.  It was still boring, but I wasn’t frustrated with it any more.    Any ways that is why I didn’t blog last week.

Today was good.  The weather was beautiful all weekend, and that continued.  I’m shampooing carpets again, but that should go fairly quickly.  I did however hurt my back doing that.  And not just a little hurt, more of a ” I want to go lay down but I can’t,” kind of hurt.  I’m hoping it’ll clear up tonight.  Then this evening Tyler C. and I helped Tiffany sort out tin for the siding on her house.  So it’s been a busy day.

Proverbs 22:1 A good name is rather to be chosen than great riches, and loving favour rather than silver and gold.

My title says it all.  We spent the first half of the day do an Arrowhea debrief.  It was fairly uneventful.  I spent the rest of the afternoon going over Trading Post stuff with Donna.

Psalm 84:2 My soul longeth, yea, even fainteth for the courts of the LORD: my heart and my flesh crieth out for the living God.

If only this were true all the time in my life instead of being so sporadic.

84:11-12 For the LORD God is a sun and shield: the LORD will give grace and glory: no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly. O LORD of hosts, blessed is the man that trusteth in thee.

Proverbs 16:2 All the ways of a man are clean in his own eyes; but the LORD weigheth the spirits.

Boy have I found that to be true.  God has been slowly pointing out in my life thing I thought were clean but aren’t really.

I came to the realization this evening that I’ve been operating on the assumption that I will one day “make it.”  Living under the delusion that at some point I will arrive. I realize now that I will never “make it”, I will never “arrive.”  This race that I’m on, the goal that I’m striving for, cannot be attained this side of heaven. Yet Christ will have me pick up my cross daily. I must keep on keeping on. For it is by grace I have been saved, not by works so that I cannot boast. It is the gift of God. Father give me strength.

A quick side note, the wind went away, but we had a foot of snow on the ground this morning.

Psalm 83:1 Keep not thou silence, O God: hold not thy peace, and be not still, O God.

83:16 Fill their faces with shame; that they may seek thy name, O LORD.

Father if this is what it takes to get me to chase You, please do it.

Proverbs 15:2-3 The tongue of the wise useth knowledge aright: but the mouth of fools poureth out foolishness. The eyes of the LORD are in every place, beholding the evil and the good.

15:16 Better is little with the fear of the LORD than great treasure and trouble therewith.

I Chronicles 10:13 So Saul died for his transgression which he committed against the LORD, even against the word of the LORD, which he kept not, and also for asking counsel of one that had a familiar spirit, to enquire of it;

Ultimately all of the things Saul died for boil down to disobedience. That is a sobering thought.

I was informed today that it is our seventh strait day of wind.  Not like a gentle breeze wind, but more of a “Oh look the rabbit hutch just blew over (with a rabbit in it) and so did the Biffy (which was chained to a 4×4 post)…” kind of wind.  It has also been chilly.  This is the weather our first camp of the year (Trinity Lutheran School) has come to.  We’re hoping it clears up so tomorrow they can do some activities.  All else goes well.  I cleaned bathrooms today, helped Tom redo the bridge in the sporting clays, worked on one of the office computers, and did dishes.  All in all a day full of variety (which I happen to like).

I do have a prayer request though.  It is looking like I’m going to have to be a counselor for our Outdoor Education Camp, and I really don’t want to do that.  I guess I’m asking for patience, love, and understanding for whatever poor campers get stuck with me.

Proverbs 14:17 He that is son angry dealeth foolishly: and a man of wicked devices is hated.

14:21 He that despiseth his neighbour sinneth: but he that hath mercy on the poor, happy is he.

14:29-30 He that is slow of wrath is of great understanding: but he that is hasty of spirit exalteth folly. A sound heart is the life of the flesh: but envy the rottenness of the bones.