This evening I’ve been reading the book The Hole in Our Gospel by Richard Stearns. I’ve very much been convicted that I need to be doing more for the poor. So I went to the World Vision website and I am now sponsoring a child. Here is my question (which I will throw out into the great abyss of the Internet not really expecting a response): What are my motives? Am I doing this out of my love for Christ or simply guilt? God looks at my heart. Christ says if I love Him I will obey his commands. He commands me to take care of the poor. Is it because of my love for Christ that I feel guilty? How do I love this child (his name is Samuel and he lives in Kenya) who is so far away?
I almost didn’t do the sponsorship, but my only reason for not doing it was “I can’t afford it.” Since this is obviously a lie I went ahead and did it any ways. How do I know when to stop? I’ve always been scared if I started doing things like this I would start caring, really caring, and would end up giving all my money away. Why does that scare me? How stupid is that? Yet it is there, even now. I have a really twisted heart.
Proverbs 6:20-22 My son, keep thy father’s commandment, and forsake not the law of thy mother: Bind them continually upon thine heart, and tie them about thy neck. When thou goest, it shall lead thee; when thou sleepest, it shall keep thee; and when thou awakest, it shall talk with thee.
6:32 But whoso committeth adultery with a woman lacketh understanding: he that doeth it destroyeth his own soul.
This is why porn is so bad. This is why it scares me so much. Christ said if you look at a women lustfully you have committed adultery with her in your heart. Adultery destroys souls.